Ok this will sound terribly selfish but my abusive father is dying and I just want it over with.
He was a terrible person. Abusive, cold, mean spirited. Honestly he never did anything kind to me. He’s a classic sociopath. Now he’s dying. It’s ugly. He’s still the same person- mean, cruel, demanding.
I’m seeking advice for how to deal with all the past emotions coming up again. I thought I buried these when I was 20 and left home for good. And the guilt I feel for nothing feeling anything and for wanting him to die frankly.
Is there something wrong with me?