Throwaway for obvious reasons. Sorry if it doesn’t make a load of sense, I am very sad and scatterbrained.
I met this guy last year. We quickly became good friends. We slept over, made out, had sex. All the good stuff. Then I fell for him. He didn’t want to date. That was okay, we hadn’t known each other that long and the feelings were pretty new. I could move on.
Boy, oh boy, was I wrong.
It has been months. And the feelings have come and gone multiple times. We’ve talked about it multiple times. I know that we will never date. There’s not a chance in hell at this point. I know that.
He’s always been a good friend. We understood each other in different aspects of our lives. But recently it feels like we have drifted apart and it makes me very upset. I’m used to people moving on from me, but this one hurts. What’s worse is that the feelings for him are back yet again. I haven’t told him and am worried it will push him away for good.
He often appears somewhere in my dreams and lately I am dreaming a lot more than usual, I have no idea why. But he’s there, which makes it harder to even begin the process of, essentially, moving on. He’s just there in my head, in my dreams and in every day thoughts.
I’m not sure if I fell in love with him or if I’m being obsessive. There was a word I found the other day that felt like it fit what I’m feeling (it started with the letter ‘L’).
I’m not sure what to do. Say goodbye? Explain the situation again? Let him decide?
Any advice? I’m feeling very lost.
(I see a therapist but would like some other opinions on the matter.)